"We want a radical intimacy more than anything –
a partner or a situation or a friend or an experience through which we
are able to share our deepest truths and our raw open hearts; to
finally, once and for all, let go of the exhausting effort
to become someone different. But until we deeply embrace our utter
aloneness, invite it all the way in as the sweet friend it is – meet it
as a beloved guide from beyond, receiving its gifts from the stars – the
intimacy we so long for can never be fully embraced. We will always be
holding back slightly, not fully able to allow the other to mean
*everything*. We will always remain a bit distant, longing painfully for
a plunge into closeness, driven from within to seek some experience –
any experience – other than this one.
In the words of our dear
Rumi: “Any search moves away from the spot where the object of the
quest is. Sleep deeply wherever you are on the way. Maybe some traveler
will wake you.""
"At times a broken heart will appear as your teacher, and you will be
asked to practice the most radical yogas of sadness and vulnerability.
At times you may see that the yoga of a broken heart is the highest path
for you and will ask that you set aside all others, placing your
tenderness, your aloneness, and the scary places upon the altar in front
of you. Allow yourself to be the great yogini of the broken heart, for it may be why you have come here—to feel the longing and
the burning of this world, to hold and metabolize it inside the grace
field of your own body, and to shower beings everywhere with your wisdom
and your love.
You are wedded to the unknown now, and you are
willing to give your heart to others and to this world—to use even your
sadness, your hopelessness, and your aloneness to connect with others,
allowing yourself to be crafted as a wild translucent vessel of